Dying Stranger

I don't know if its because of my homoerotic tendencies or something but I have come to realize that when I fantasize about my girl it's not me she is doing it with. Shirley and I have been cuddling once and we got into a conversation where we are asking one another if we think about each other when we are together in a sexy, kinky way, you know where you touch your genitals till you release your love juices. Masturbating is the right term... I was holding it up to build tension. Well anyway as we we're talking about I brought up that usually when I think about her when I masturbate I told her that its always another man/woman she's doing it with. The thing is that I haven't gotten any sexual experience other than my girlfriend, any experience that does not involve penetration I don't count em. I always fantasize how she would moan and look at me while another person was making her feel good. It always makes me hard thinking about it. I even fantasized her w...

"Marami ang namamatay sa maling akala." marahil alam na alam natin ang kasabihang ito. Hindi ko lubos akalain na ang maling akala, paminsan minsan, ay may maganda ring naidudulot. Ako nga pala si Jeremy Suares at ito ang isa sa mga kwento kong magpapainit at kikiliti sa inyo. Ang sumusunod na tagpo ay nangyari matapos ang graduation ko sa high school. Tahimik at hindi palakaibigan itong si Miguelito, tawagin na lang natin s'yang Miggy para madali. Isa s'yang transfer student na lumipat kalagitnaan ng 3rd year class namin at sa klase namin ito bumagsak. Hindi na kami naging magkaklase ng 4th year kami dahil lumipat ito sa local na private school sa amin na katapat lamang ng public school kung saan ako nag-aaral. Ang bali-balita kay Miggy ay galing ito sa isang mayamang ankan sa Maynila, ng mamatay ang lolo nito ay bumagsak ang kanilangn negosyo dahil sa mishandling ng mga magulang nito at dahil dito ay nabaon sa utang ang pamilya niya. Nagtago ang mga magulang at i...

In reality the world as I know it cease to exist, the more I know about it the lesser I become. In my version of reality I deemed love to exist but I know deep inside that it doesn't. A happy relationship today may someday be a lump sum of tears and pain. We like all the other things in this world is not eternal and it includes love. Ano bang ka-emohan ito nawawala na naman ako sa karimlan ng buhay. Tinanong ako ng girlfriend ko kung bakit hindi ako possessive sa kanya kung bakit okey lang sa akin kahit na umaaligaid sa kanya ang mga dati nyang nakarelasyon. Hindi ba raw ako nagseselos tapos humantong ang pag-uusap namin sa bagay na kung mahal ko ba syang talaga o hindi. Sabi ko sa kanya, "Thats ridiculous, I know deep inside na mahal kita but it doesn't mean I own you and your decisions." I always given her the freedom of choosing whoever she wants. I am not the type of boyfriend na possessive kasi di ko naman talaga linya yun. Your free to flirt and play with ...

"Tahan na." nilapitan ko si Bobet at pinunasan ang luha sa kanyang mga mata. "Ayokong nakikita kang umiiyak." "Kenneth." hinawakan niya ang kamay kong nasa kanyang pisngi. "Wala ka man lang bang sasabihin. Mahal kita." Hindi ko sya masagot. Sa halip ay inilapit ko ang aking labi sa kanya at hindi n'ya ako binigo at sinalubong ng init ng kanyang labi ang labi ko. Isang madiin at mainit na halit iyon na puno ng makamundong pagnanasa. Pagnanasang nabuo sa pamamagitan ng pagtago ng nararamdaman sa mahabang panahon. Naramdaman ko na lamang ang panginigig ng aking hita. Ang aking cellphone ay nagbavibrate. Nabuwag ang aming halikan at tinignan ko ang aking cellphone, si Manny tumatawag. "Hello?" pambungad ko sa cellphone. "Nakakaistorbo ba ako sa lovebirds?" pangungutya ni Manny, "Ingat ka lang ha, ayokong nasasaktan ka." "Magsama nga kayo nitong si Bobet." sabi ko. Pilit namang nililihis ni Bob...

I said its all over na. I've learned my lesson, I know. But then again there are times na my small span of attention is drawn towards you. And it begins again, the vicious cycle of my demise. Just now everything is okey sa aming dalawa ni Toni. Hindi nqa nabubrought up ung issue naming dalawa kay Shirley, no biggie na kum baga. I don't sleep there anymore na rin for months na and paminsan minsan na lamang ako kung bumisita sa bahay nila Shirley ngayon dahil sa busy ako lately sa pagtatrabaho. Everytime na nagkikita kami ni Toni ay cool lang. Aaminin ko kahit papaano ay meron akong nararamdaman pero not that much, at least hindi na gaya ng dati na parang tinutusok ng karayom ang dibdiib ko pag nariyan sya. I also found it hard to figure out kung paano ko sya nagustuhan all this time. I realized his flaws and his imperfections. that's when I thought na what I felt for him faded already. It was until today. Since sira ang aking computer ay minabuti kong ipahiram ang akin...

I am so sorry for the inconvenience. I wasn't able to make any updates due to the fact that my computer is broken since march and I haven't got the time to even visit the blog lately. I was also busy organizing an event that me and my friends started and it was a success. I am so happy with everything that is going on, this truly is my year. I am also happy to inform everyone that I have gotten over my thing with Toni and everything is about unicorns and rainbows now. I just realized that he would be a complete waste of time and he is not worth it anyway. So might as well concentrate on Shirley and our future. There is the occasional flirts that I do with him though I only do it for the giggles and for fooling around pero walang malisya. It doesn't mean that I am done with my thing with Toni that I will stop writing for you guys. Of course there's the occasional urge but I always keep my sanity in tact and won't let it take over me. Moving forward I am hoping ...

Iyon ang paborito kong quote galing kay Spongebob Squarepants. Yes I am ready... ... ready to forget and to leave it all behind. I have decided after a long time of making myself feel and look stupid. It was by far the lowest part of my life but I think I'm already over it. Tama na ang pagpapakagago at pagpapakatanga para sa taong hindi naman karapat-dapat. Salamat sa mga nag-inpire sa akin at sa mga taong pinadama sa akin na I am significant and I thank them so much for that. Hahayaan ko na si Toni sa buhay n'ya. I realized na mas mahal ko parin ang ate n'ya. Do not fret guys I would still be posting on this blog to keep you happy. As usual this feb hindi nga lang palagian ang pag uupdate pero promise ko maguupdate ako! Eto muna alay ko sa inyo sana kahit di n'yo maintindihan e magustuhan n'yo... Oo, nakikinig ako ng kpop. Lol!